Well, perhaps frightening is a bit strong. First of all, the webby last Sunday (01/24) was exquisite — one of the best we’ve had so far, and that’s a big claim, since we’ve had some truly magnificent webbies over the past 17+ weeks. And there’s so much I’d like to say, but in the interest of time… I shall not. [Note: I just dumped a bunch of text, so this post won’t take an hour to read…]
This past week was about the hero’s journey. I’d been puzzled about that reference for some time (but not curious enough to look it up, mind you.) After discussing it in the webby on Sunday, I asked my coach during our session on Monday morning, “have you ever heard of ‘the hero’s journey?’ ” He said yes, of course, and that opened up a huge conversation. I’d told him about #MKMMA, so he was curious about what I was learning. I said, “they asked us a question on last night’s webinar: “What are you pretending not to know, that is keeping you from moving forward?” And he said, “that’s a good question. What are you pretending not to know?” I responded, “I don’t know!” and he said, “I don’t think you’re being completely honest with yourself.”
So I commenced to tell him all the reasons why he was WRONG about his last assertion; then I made a statement to him, and… as I made this particular statement, a very vivid image flashed across my mind that related directly to one facet of my DMP, and one part of my life that I was really dissatisfied with, and with that flash came an intuitive insight that caused me to go silent! And a few seconds later, I said, “wait. that can’t be it.”
It was the end of our coaching session, and I said, “I need to think about this…” and I’d check with him later. What followed was several hours of thought and introspection, and when I was done, I knew why I wasn’t moving forward and it made perfect sense. The realization took me directly to Master Key lesson 15, lines 3 and 5 which state, “… difficulties, inharmonies and obstacles indicate that we are either refusing to give out (or up, in this case) what we no longer need, or refusing to accept what we require” and “We cannot obtain what we lack if we tenaciously cling to what we have…” Then suddenly, my course became crystal clear, and by noon the next day, I had become wealthy — in my mind at least, because I’d figured out what was holding me BACK and by noon the next day I had done what I needed to do to clear the blockage, and I’ve been doing somersaults in my mind ever since, and moving forward with determined action.
So, here’s the thing. When I realized what the problem was, I resolved to clear it. When I went to clear it, it created intense pain, emotionally and physically! But once I realized what the problem was, I also realized that there was only one path, and there were deep-seated connections that had to be severed. Sunday’s webby talked about our “associative memory” being our identity, and in order to move forward to who we wanted to be, we needed to let go of who we “were” and that that process would feel like part of us was dying — and we were afraid of that death. And that … was exactly how it felt, and that is part of the hero’s journey.
I am pleased to report that although I did suffer some pain… briefly… I am here to write this post, and because of the process I have more energy than I’ve had in MONTHS! I’m still here, and I am whole, perfect, strong(er), powerful, (more) loving, (more)harmonious and happier — because I figured out what was plaguing me… and I fixed it. NOW, I am looking forward so much more strongly to the incredible life I’ve imagined and written about in my DMP.
Is there anything else I need to let go of? Maybe, but I don’t think so. If I do, I’m positive it won’t be any more painful that what I just experienced, so I’ve got that covered, and today I feel like that photo at the top of this post… instead of the confused, conflicted person I was a few days ago. All in all, a nice trade.
With the tools and techniques I’ve learned and am continuing to learn in MKMMA, I’m building a new associative memory that includes the thoughts and experiences in my DMP and my awesome Press Release, and I look forward to sharing more fun and invigorating news with you over the next 8 weeks.
I promise to keep moving and keep you posted, and — as you already know — I always keep my promises.
Have an awesome day!