… well, you know — than never. Week 13 started out well. I was determined to get caught up but, afterall, that was Christmas rush week 🙂 Still I was going to make it work, so I sat down excitedly, ready to read and absorb lesson 13 and as I plowed through… the corner of the plow hit a rut and my reading slowed to a crawl and it seemed like I was struggling to make sense of every word…
As it turned out, those first few pages were a very tough read for me — Emerson-esque or worse — but by the time I got to paragraph 15 things became clear again, and it was business as usual. I tried again a couple of days later, with the same result so I determined it wasn’t me. Those first 2 1/2 pages were pure drudgery so I left them alone. The rest of the lesson was energizing and gave me lots to think about.
One thing I like about the Master Keys is that it repeats things over and over, so we get re-exposed and it sinks in and really gets anchored. And one thing I don’t like about the Master Keys… is that it repeats things over and over and I’m thinking “OKAY.. I got this! Let’s move on to something else…” just as he takes that “old” information and makes a new point with it and I’m… better.
The assignment, “… recognize that you are part of the whole, and that a part must be the same in kind and quality as the whole…” I like the idea of being part of “all powerful” and omniscient and omnipresent, but when you get right down to doing that sit and trying to “be” a part of the whole and feel that connection in our capacity as part of the universal mind… that didn’t really happen for me. On the surface it seems like it would be a easy. “Oh..yeah! That rocks. I am a part of that!” but then I sit in the chair, in the same place, and I feel like… ME. I tried other sits that week, and maybe once I almost kinda felt like it might happen but… I never really got there.
I did have an experience a couple of years ago during a Reiki attunement, where I found myself looking down at the earth through the clouds, perfectly clear vision. I don’t know if I was flying or floating or just sitting “in the sky,” but I maintained that perspective for about 8 maybe 10 minutes. I was told later that the attunement I received was called the eye of God. To my dismay, I haven’t experienced it since. But, I imagined I might feel something similar to that when doing the week 13 sits, but so far, that hasn’t been the case.
I will try again. I understand it, conceptually, and even accept it, logically. And I would LOVE to feel it like that. Perhaps Subby will work with me some evening and help me make that connection so I can truly “realize” it. Do you hear me, Subby?!
We’ll keep you posted.